I have somehow ended up being gainfully employed. To be quite honest, I am not even sure how I ended up here. I wasn’t even fully invested in it, I mean, I probably was just halfheartedly answering the application, which was pretty easy – typing tests, email management, a bit of math – I don’t even remember all of it. I don’t even know what pushed me to apply in the first place. I was not even actively looking for employment.
The first week was exhausting, in a good way. It was a tad humbling, too. I mean, it’s not that I suck at my skills, it’s just that I haven’t been using them for a long while, and also there is some learning curve to doing things the way the company does, and I was still getting used to it. It even crossed my mind that I might not make it to the second week.
Today I started the second week of training. It was a little bit better, a little lighter compared to last week. My scorecard from the past week was satisfactory, at best. That’s fine. Although there was one bit of feedback that gave me a little bit of anxiety. I was told I needed to be more presentable and look more polished and was then advised to put on some lipstick or maybe turn on some webcam filters.
No, I was not offended. I know I can only do so much for my face hahaha. It’s being uncomfortable at the thought of having to put on makeup. I mean come on. I never thought I’d have to doll up for a virtual job. So there’s that. That’s probably the only thing I am worried about.
Also check this out. LMAO. I had the rare spark of courage to post a photo of myself. It has been a very long time since I was brave enough to publish a selfie.
So far, the training is bearable. We’re not being micromanaged, which I like. The learning is self-paced and I do like the idea that we aren’t treated like imbeciles that needed to be micromanaged but instead like professionals that deliver when required.
I’ve already felt some changes in how I spend the day, too. Before this, I would just so easily rot in bed the whole day. For the pst week, my screen time on social media is down by a large margin. Furthermore, My office is clean and nice and that has made me happy all week.
Also, it does help that I have been feeling good about myself lately. Hurray for recovery.